So after I woke up this morning and saw the wreckage, I sent Evelys an email hoping to salvage whatever we could of Morenetz. That, of course, didn't happen, but he did reply tonight. This isn't bullshit, this is the real deal. I doubt that anyone will accept it, but hey, it's for the community to do whatever we will:
A 2nd email followed with:I'm very sorry for this whole mess, and for any pain or harm I've caused
anyone. I don't have any of the site information. I got scared and
deleted everything. I'm still scared, to be honest.
I was in a very bad place in my life when I started pretending to be
someone that I'm not, and I used it as an escape from the hell that my
life was. It became a habit I fell into, and it was very, very wrong of
me to deceive you and others.
I think that it's best if I don't go back to FOH. What I did was
inexcusable, despite any issues I have, and I think it's clear that the
community is better off without me. I offer my deepest apologies. If you
don't mind, please extend them to FOH, for wasting their time, deceiving
them, everything I've done, and anyone my actions affected.
I will never do something like this again. I have to be myself, and not a
figment of my imagination. What I do on the net can affect other people,
and I forgot that. I've been hurt a lot in my life, and I never meant or
wanted to negatively affect other people. I'm ashamed for what I've done.
I've handed the whole FOH/MN situation, if not the last decade of my life,
wrong from top to bottom. I'm very, very sorry. I hurt someone who was a
good friend to me by using their picture. I should never have pretended
to be someone else as an escape from my hell. I didn't man up then and
face it, and it led to this. I should have manned up last night, and
because I'm such a fuckup and I didn't, I deleted 3 days of data and
wasted the time of the FOH community, especially people like you and Tuco
that did so much to try to help make the transition smooth.
I'm trying to man up now. I'm sorry for being a fuckup and for deceiving
you and others.
FOH provided a lot
of good times, and those people didn't deserve this shit.
At some point, I have to get up the balls to talk to (RL Name deleted)(the woman whose
pictures I used) and tell her how bad I fucked up and how sorry I am for
what I did and if I caused her any hassle or pain. If she's contacted you
or the site at all, please pass that along as well. She is (was, I assume
now) an old friend from IRC back in the day, a truly awesome person, and
someone who was a good friend to me when I didn't have many. She doesn't
deserve any problems I caused.
I really am sorry, dude, and I feel like shit about this whole situation.
Thanks for relaying to people what I just don't have the nuts to do, even
over the internet.