Recent content by Koushirou

No jack-o-lanterns here, but I do have these cute little cat figures I found at a gift shop that matched Arya and Bruce. Made sure to hide them before the ex moved out because I wanted to keep something of my little man.

Better day today. Missed my two gym days last week due to parents being in town, but got back to it today and had a good session. I don't usually decorate shit for seasons/holidays, but went ahead and busted out some Halloween stuff for the kitchen and the porch and set that all up. Also...

I got some marketing shit that said you had to like pre-register for this shit on the app? Sounded lame. Are they not doing the classic tabs on the packaging?

Hm, don't think so? Would be awkward trying to reach keyboard/mouse around whatever handles/console most stationary bikes would have, unless there's some more minimal/compact ones out there I don't know about. There is a DeerRun one that should work that's only $200ish that I might give a try...

Yeah, don't really have room for a whole treadmill, since I use this with my standing desk/while raiding. The DeerRun one looks decent, but man the Engrish on the site isn't giving me hope, haha.

For as much Food Network in general that I used to watch, including Good Eats, you'd think I'd be a lot better at cooking.

To no one's surprise, my Chinese walking pad's motor is pretty much toast already, just from using it a couple hours, four times a week. Considering this is most of my exercise I could use a new, quality one. Anyone have any recommendations for something that's gonna last longer?

Honestly thought about just putting a big ass note to call my brother on my gun case with like a picture of my family or some shit, just in the event I get to the point where I go to pull it out. Sounds sappy and dumb as shit, but.

So, she tried to get me on Prozac. I declined. Told her I'd rather just try to bump up the dose on the trazodone I was already taking for the insomnia instead to see if that makes any difference. Considering she was also implying me being on Prozac for like a year or more, I really didn't...

I’m not committed to getting anything yet. Kind of leaning still towards no, but at least going to have the appointment and talk about it. Was reminded of a JP clip I watched a bit ago where he has an example of talking with someone who has no job, no social life, no relationship, etc. and the...

Trust me, I absolutely don’t want the pharma shit and I feel like a failure for even considering it, but yes, there is a significant part of me that wants to be finished. I’m already a damn zombie, dragging myself out of bed and around the house and barely even surviving at this point. I have 0...

I can’t really stress enough that there just isn’t shit here for me to go out and do that I’m remotely interested in, and I’m not going to go drive an hour+ one way regularly to go try to hang out with random, insufferable DMV people. I’ve talked with my parents some more about moving in with...

Seeing a psychiatrist tomorrow to possibly put me on anti-depressants. I don’t want to, but I don’t want to be admitted either, which was starting to become a possibility. I want to die, but I don’t want to want to die, if that makes any sense. Again, I don’t want to be on some bullshit, but...

I did want to get one to make my friend's mayo recipe sometime. Would have been helpful here, too.

Because I don't know what I'm doing.