Recent content by Koushirou

What the fuck.

Did end up going for a couple days to Ocean City with the family. Told myself I was just going to have a good time and focus on positive things and I think I held up pretty well. Didn’t get into the funk of thinking about being the fifth wheel, etc. Did some beach time, went fishing for the...

Oh fuck, bagel chips now, too? Fuuuuuuuuuuck.

It's not that I want it, but sad to say it still feels bad when you hear about damn near every female on the internet having the problem of creepers or weirdos, etc. and I'm over here and it's completely crickets having never had this issue ever. Like, what the fuck is so wrong with me that not...

I like how people attribute the lack of my DMs blowing up when my marriage ended to board atrophy or increased maturity or whatever, when I'm pretty sure it's just because I'm just that fucked up and worthless.

Yesterday was bad. I always feel like shit on holidays when I'm alone. Started off at the grocery store watching nothing but families buying stuff for get-togethers and cook-outs while I went home with a couple of pre-made salads and cat food. Went back home to play EQ with some friends since...

Hell, I figured that'd looked pretty clean for a workspace.

Car won’t start this morning. Throwing a million errors with the brakes. I just spent $550 in maintenance two weeks ago on it. Had to wake up the husband to take me to my consult with the divorce lawyer, lol. Fucking kill me.

That sounds like it'd be a straight depressing and sad experience, personally. Paying someone to pretend to like me for a bit just sounds pathetic.

Random hook-ups don't sound the least bit appealing to me. Maybe just cope since it's not like I've ever been presented with one, but the thought of just banging a stranger sounds awful. Even if it were just for fun, the people I was with couldn't even be bothered to make sure I had a good...

Who do you think is going to fuck me if I could barely even get my own husband to do it? Sure, I can go advertise myself up on the incel forums and go be a piece of meat for a bit, but when all I really have left is my rapidly dwindling dignity do you really think that's going to make me feel...

This helps it make more sense. Thanks.

Sorry, feel like this is turning into my personal journal or some shit, so if it's too much just yell at me. The feeling better didn't last long and last few days have been back to feeling like shit. Trying to stay positive about things is so incredibly exhausting and I'm already so damn tired...

Yeah, I'm sure it is. Obviously just wasn't something I considered when I got it originally, and TBH even if it was written in big ass bold letters and told to me over and over, it's not like it would have changed my original plans because I needed down payment money and that's what I had...

Not quite sure where to put this, but anyway, when I bought my house a few years ago I had taken a loan on my 401k to help with my down payment. Thought this was a normal thing, but maybe I was dumb? Talked with Fidelity the other day just to go over options of what to do with my 401k and also I...