hhmm.. is it possible to have an ego as large as mine and not like one"s self? Serious question... maybe I don"t like myself... I have never thought I didn"t but maybe I do and I am making all these choices based on that fact... even if I don"t see it.
Weak excuse?
I have asbergers... I don"t think like you do... I CAN"T think like a normal person.. I don"t perceive reality the way you do.
Weak excuse... fuck you.
See here is the thing.. I used to be a hard ass bastard. I never took shit from anyone but I could never keep a relationship going either. So I decided to try something else and do all I could for a girl. It doesn"t work either. But thanks for all the replies and keeping the insults to a minimum.
yes rtheir terms not mine.. anti social personality disoprder with psychopathic tendancies and narcissistic... it has to do with me not having empathy I believe.. and not wantinfg real relationships.. but I have gotten better since then I think...
Why don"t you suck my cock you little bitch?
SSDD No matter what I do it all ends the same. No matter how hard or little I try I always end up with the girl vanishing. I am so sick of this shit.
sp even if they are my friwends fuck them if I want more tham justr freinsd? that goes against every thing I am... I want to take care fo someone.. to give them every thing they have ever weanted...
I told her exactly what I wanted and she said she lioved me.. then she went to their old oplkace to help hm pack up their stuff and every thing changed
@phenix what? Are you sayingf she was never with me and I was just fooling myself?
@schezanna *sighs* But I ahve known her for 20+ years and always liked her an she was one of my best friends in HS.. I have a lot of feelings for her... *sighs& wtf..
so wtf am I suppsoed to do? I want to take care of the womean I am with.. amd I supposed to just be a ptick? I don"t want just any old skank any more.. I want a real woman I can fo thinks for who apprecaites them and shows her appreaciarteion to me... I mean is that so fickomg much to ask?
Any of you girls ion here want to give me a try? I am a fun loving guy who wil pay all your bills, not require tyou to work any and all I require is you give a shit about me and trate me with some kindness... *sighs* I just don"t fucking get it any more.
OMFG get this.. I just asked her where they were fgonna live.. she said she was still gonna live with me.. W T F lol Am I this stupid.... that she woukld think I would let her live with me and try and repair a relationship with anothewr man WHILE livning with me? Someoen shoot me in the fucking...
well hiow does it workl? I am so tired of all this shit.. i don"t want just a piece fo pussy aby mniore.. I want a real relationshiop and I have no idea how to fgo abnout it... I am so tired and hurt and just disgusted with ti all... he couldn"t evben give her heat and food yet she is going back...
She was my friend and I gave her a p[lace to go when her marrige wemnt south. I havbe always like d her and had feelings for her. I thougth that helping her and showing her what all I could do for her would show her how much I cared and show her she needed to be with me.
I don"t want to be this way any more. I don"t ant to hurt any more. i don"t want to be s fucked up that no one wants to be with me. Why do I have to haev asbergers? Why can"t I be normal. Why can"t I be happy? What am I doing wertong? Whyat do I need to do to be happy? I am just so tired of...
Thanks man. I am just so tired fo losing. WHy can"t I ever be fucking happy. why is it I always have to lose every thing? Why can"t I win for opnce? I just don"t even fucking know any more. I am sure someone willl come on here in amin and point out it"s all my fault and how stipid UI am and how...
Update! Amy went back to her husband tonight! She was just using me for my money and a place to live apparently! I love life.. it"s so fucking fun! Maybe next time I won"t go after a married chick.. nope cause I"m a fucking retard and I never learn!
Ok finally got a minute to post.
So this is what has been happening...
Since last I posted Melissa has moved in and Amy has spent a couple nights. Since I am moving into one of my parents rental houses I told them I would clean up after the last tenant left to save them the hassle of...
OMFG let me get us back on topic... and damn do I got a story to share with you all tonight!!
Ok so last update I had talked to the shrink and agreed to let Melissa move in with me. I was also talking to Mel again because she had started messaging me.. sit down cause well now shit gets weird...
This place is one of the few places where you can come and just tell someone what a PoS they are, cuss them out, and talk to them in a couple days and it be ok.
I have almost always enjoyed my time here and am glad I am still part of this community.