It's up there on my all time list for sure. I feel I robbed myself in the Dark Souls games, because I did a lot of co-op. I did everything solo in Bloodborne and it was ridiculously challenging for me(and it was my first souls game). It's one of only two games I platinum'd on PS4.
I got away easy this year. My gf bought a 6 foot fake tree, which turned out to be closer to 5'7". We usually get a real tree and with two cats that tree gets EVERYWHERE. I still find needles from old trees to this day.
Figured it was this story from today: ‘Westworld’ actress Evan Rachel Wood says she was raped: ‘I am strong, but I am still not okay’
Seeing as you're implying I'm wrong, how about some fucking details!
Did she "break you" and basically make you hate your life for over a decade like the OP? If no, then probably not. That said, I can think of a few things you might want to see a therapist about.
@slippery have you ever spoken to a professional therapist about this? It's completely normal to be fucked up from a broken heart. It's not normal to still be like this a decade later.