Girls who broke your heart thread

Oh I know I can"t present myself as a totally changed man in 3 weeks, and honestly, I"m not "changed" per say but I am now basically reverted to the state I was 7 or 8 months ago. I"m confident, I"m not insecure and I"m taking charge more of things within my own life and in the world around me.

I understand her caution, it"s why I know I can not rush anything, the fact she is now texting me goodnight, calling me first shows me what she has seen she is interested in....I caught her interest, now it"s time to show off that the parts she has seen so far are just a small part of the bigger picture. I think she"s interested in hanging out more because she wants to see if this is indeed a real change or not and I"ll be gosh damned if I am going to slip up along the way.

It"s odd because honestly....having this outlook about things and yourself isn"t hard and honestly you think in this situation it would be, but it"s just making me more focused, more determined.

Is she replaceable? No. If she was replaceable I wouldn"t be so determined to go through all of this to get her back. None of this would make sense at all if I thought that about her.

Could I move on from it? Yes.

Too available is something that has been brought up to me by the guy who"s helping me, it"s one of the reasons I am out of town this weekend. She originally wanted to come over Saturday, I told her sorry I had plans. Then her coming over Friday became the new plan.

And yes I will continue to update as they happen. She comes over tomorrow, I"ll post a summary of the time she is here after she goes home.

Meh, I won"t respond to the trolls comments, most people get what I"m doing this and that"s fine.

Anyways, she just called me, said her son is sick and she"s not sure if she"ll make it over or not. I was kinda bumed but I told her I understood and not to worry about it, we"d figure out another time that would work for us later if tonight didn"t work. She said she"d give me a call later to let me know.

I"m pretty sure she"s going to pull outta it, if she does, I"ll be fine with it to her and play it off as it"s no big deal. just stinks cause I probably wont see her till the following Sunday unless something comes up, but them"s the breaks and who knows, maybe that"ll be better in the end. I"ll fill you guys in as I find out more.

Yeah she canceled, said we would have to reschedule for another time. Sucks....oh well.

She knows my Friday nights are free because I"m on call for work and I stay in for the most part, my saying I was unavailable because of plans would have been known instantly to be a lie hence why I went along with it, otherwise yes I would have said something else all together.

All this stuff is getting hard, it"s really fucking hard to not just tell her how I feel....and thus is depressing the fuck out of me. -sigh- Just living one day at a time in the mean time and keeping busy as best i can.

Incognitogamer said:

Yeah, but if it was as simple as just telling them how you feel, this thread and every single love song in existence would never have happened.

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Yeah I know, it"s just a constant battle to not blurt everything out to her, tell her how I feel and so on and so forth and it"s just getting harder and harder to deal with. I know the course I"m on is the best one, but there are times when I"m like "Man fuck it...I"m calling her and telling her...." but I know anything I"ve accomplished so far would be ruined and any chances for us later would be gone....so no matter what I do, it"s lose/lose.....at least for now.

She text me this morning "Good Morning Sunshine!! How did the cupcakes turn out?" I made them last night anyways and am giving them to my pregnant friend I am visiting this weekend. We chatted briefly, asked me if I was still going out of town, I asked how her son was doing and how she was feeling and that was about it.

Bah. It"s going to be a long week.