Update:
This AFIB has ruined my life.
Prescribed medicine does fuck all to prevent it or stop it once it has started.
Had to go to ER for pneumonia the other day and started AFIBing while I was there. they injected liquid metoprolol into my system and that still wouldnt stop it.
I feel utterly fucking hopeless. I ripped out a chunk of my hair today. I get frustrated at times and slam my fist into my heart in a vain attempt to stop this shit.
This is easily the worst thing that has ever happened to me.
Asked for ablation back in July, and cardiologist wouldnt sign off on it. seeing new cardiologist Tuesday and hopefully they'll feel differently
I cant fucking do this anymore