I dont take meds and havent been to a doctor, and im very emotional/passionate about the 49ers ever since I was 6 years old.
I used to cry and break shit and get punished for breaking shit and throwing fits when Brett Favre was raping them post 1994. Then Young got one too many "stingers" and retired, ever since then its been Jeff Garcia, has beens (did you guys know Ken Dorsey started at QB for the Niners at one point in the last 15 years?) and outright laughable failures at the QB position. (I still remember the name "Tim Rattay" and it makes me angry)
SInce 94' Ive salivated for that ultimate success only to be denied by Joe Flacco and deer antler spray (fuck you Ray Lewis), I watched that purple and white confetti fall on his Bert like head as he told Suzy Kolber he is going to Disney World with the enthusiasm of a 32 year old millionaire man.
Then Kap took a knee, Harbaugh and Baalke had a spat and York decided to take Baalke's side and run Harbaugh out, only to end up firing Baalke too to bring in Shanahan who is a decent offensive mind but is burdened with 4 years of terrible draft choices and a dearth of talent.
Now Garoppolo is out for the year, as well as McKinnon. Thats like 60 million dollars of wasted money for the 2018-19 season. It is just fucking really depressing man. I guess I do suffer a couple mental health issues, I would agree Im a bit manic, maybe a little bi-polar, and probably have a touch of that tism. Maybe it was low oxygen intake at birth that stunted my brains development? Or that im half dindu? I dont know, Im just torn between trying to still be involved with the NFL or just saying fuck it all.
But when the 49ers came back to beat the favored Falcons to go to the big dance in 2012 that was one of the happiest moments of my life. I live for that shit, and I want to keep faith as I am a real supporter, but fuck its hard man.
edit : and haha Brahma i am just being silly and fucking around but you have to wonder if the 49ers are the victims of karma after treating Kap the way they did and now his profile with Nike etc.