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Thanks man.
I don't really know how to grieve without a dog. She was there for all the major losses in my life the past few years. She made everything better. I guess all I really have is this thread. I reached out to an old therapist because man, this year has been a fucking lot. Best friend dying, okay, that sucks. Buddy offing himself right after, jeez, that's rough, but I was starting to get thru it. This though...I just don't fucking know. All of the shit you take for granted. Like, I've been carrying Zel up the stairs for the past 6 months or so because her hips just couldn't drive her up them anymore. GF came down to make sure I came to bed at a reasonable time, I turned off the light and followed her up and then had this split second thing where I was like "oh shit, gotta get the dog." Fuck. Or when my GF locked the back sliding door before she went up. Any time you so much as touched that door, Zelda would wake up from a fucking dead sleep on a different floor of the house and be down and out the door before you could even get a foot out. She hated being outside alone, but anytime anyone else was out there? I dunno if she felt the outside world was too dangerous for us to go alone, and we needed to take her, true to her namesake
Or if she just didn't want to miss out on the possibility of adventure, but whatever it was, she was there, every time. Side note, if any of you fuckers are good at Photoshop and wanna slap the dog into that, go right ahead.
They deserve some recognition, so I'll post them here.
When I checked, they had a perfect 5 star rating on Google. Every single person I spoke to with that company was in near tears and handled me very gently. I was actually fine and clear headed when all of those conversations started, but it's really hard to maintain that composure when someone else you don't even know is broken up for you because they know exactly what you're going thru. The only thing that gave me any pause at all was they required everyone to wear masks if it was going to take place indoors. I absolutely refuse to wear a mask in my own house, and there was no way I was gonna have that be my dog's last memory. But, they had no such stipulations for outdoors, which while I personally feel it's ridiculous, was a fair compromise. We bought some string lights and landscape lights and lit up a corner of the yard for her and it ended up being pretty good, sheltered from the wind a little, and it was a great send off for her. If you guys have something like this in your state, wholeheartedly recommend.
Now my biggest problem is that I don't wanna get a puppy in the winter. Training would be an absolute bitch. Spring can't come fast enough.
Sorry for turning this thread into the waterworks guys. But thank you for letting me do this. I don't have a lot of outlets left for saying this kinda shit. We'll end on a majestic high note. What a great dog.
I don't really know how to grieve without a dog. She was there for all the major losses in my life the past few years. She made everything better. I guess all I really have is this thread. I reached out to an old therapist because man, this year has been a fucking lot. Best friend dying, okay, that sucks. Buddy offing himself right after, jeez, that's rough, but I was starting to get thru it. This though...I just don't fucking know. All of the shit you take for granted. Like, I've been carrying Zel up the stairs for the past 6 months or so because her hips just couldn't drive her up them anymore. GF came down to make sure I came to bed at a reasonable time, I turned off the light and followed her up and then had this split second thing where I was like "oh shit, gotta get the dog." Fuck. Or when my GF locked the back sliding door before she went up. Any time you so much as touched that door, Zelda would wake up from a fucking dead sleep on a different floor of the house and be down and out the door before you could even get a foot out. She hated being outside alone, but anytime anyone else was out there? I dunno if she felt the outside world was too dangerous for us to go alone, and we needed to take her, true to her namesake
Or if she just didn't want to miss out on the possibility of adventure, but whatever it was, she was there, every time. Side note, if any of you fuckers are good at Photoshop and wanna slap the dog into that, go right ahead.
They deserve some recognition, so I'll post them here.
When I checked, they had a perfect 5 star rating on Google. Every single person I spoke to with that company was in near tears and handled me very gently. I was actually fine and clear headed when all of those conversations started, but it's really hard to maintain that composure when someone else you don't even know is broken up for you because they know exactly what you're going thru. The only thing that gave me any pause at all was they required everyone to wear masks if it was going to take place indoors. I absolutely refuse to wear a mask in my own house, and there was no way I was gonna have that be my dog's last memory. But, they had no such stipulations for outdoors, which while I personally feel it's ridiculous, was a fair compromise. We bought some string lights and landscape lights and lit up a corner of the yard for her and it ended up being pretty good, sheltered from the wind a little, and it was a great send off for her. If you guys have something like this in your state, wholeheartedly recommend.
Now my biggest problem is that I don't wanna get a puppy in the winter. Training would be an absolute bitch. Spring can't come fast enough.
Sorry for turning this thread into the waterworks guys. But thank you for letting me do this. I don't have a lot of outlets left for saying this kinda shit. We'll end on a majestic high note. What a great dog.
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