I sound broke because I am broke. A long list of highway tolls on a car I haven't had since 2019, and the resultant late fees and penalties imposed (without me even knowing about it), for six years, by an idiotic state and its idiotic department of transportation, all but ensured that I'm cleaned out on money. I had to bend over backwards working just to make ends meet because of a government bureaucracy that has no mercy on anybody.
It was this debacle more than anything else, but my spending habits the last couple years didn't help either. Ever since my best friend / one time almost wife died I've been buying things a lot more, probably as a coping mechanism, and have now become one of those many many people with a collection of things I don't have time to watch/play/read.
I'm starting a moratorium on fun/unnecessary spending at the end of the week, and taking a small amount of time off from all of the work I've been doing just to rest and de-stress. Setting up a grill first (for cheap) and that's THE LAST THING. No more purchases for a while.
Most important thing is to stop spending, because overspending as a coping mechanism means that when something unexpected / serious comes up, you have less financial padding than you should, and find yourself struggling unnecessarily. If I have extra money that means save, not spend. This is the new philosophy now that I've noticed how bad it got without me realizing it.