Depression
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moonarchia
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Actually been feeling sorta better lately. Not happy, really, but not in the fucking hole. I'll take it.
bixxby
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My therapist and I have actually been taking a different tack. We've been addressing my ADD instead of my depression. It may be my difficulty in concentrating that's been my worst enemy.
So I'm back on adderall. Something I probably shouldn't have stopped taking ~16 years ago.
Which also happens to be the time in my life depression symptoms started showing up.
Which also happens to be the time in my life depression symptoms started showing up.
kegkilla
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Turns out these meds are only helping me focus on how much like shit I feel and how fucked my life is.
Okay, so wow. That was one bad day of adjustment, 9 days ago. We upped my dose and... holy shit. It's like a stiff breeze up the kilt. I'mclear-headedfor the first time in, like, forever.
Went and saw my therapist today and she told me about the long talk she had with my psychiatrist. And that they'd both come to the same conclusion: my main problem isn't depression or social anxiety. Nope. This whole time it's been the ADD that I lapsed in treating 15 years ago. Those things are still
Which is the same time my depression symptoms started showing up. I'M SO SMART.
Depression and anxiety are still issues, but secondary. The ADD has been in the driver's seat.
This isn't the chemical high of Effexor. It's not the mild mood-stabilizing of Wellbutrin. It's not the do-nothing or make-it-worse of the other medications I've tried (seriously, fuck you Prozac). I'm up. It feelsnormal.I have energy to do things. I can focus. I'm able to roll with the punches and pick myself up.
So, in short... oh fuck, I'm high on meth.
Went and saw my therapist today and she told me about the long talk she had with my psychiatrist. And that they'd both come to the same conclusion: my main problem isn't depression or social anxiety. Nope. This whole time it's been the ADD that I lapsed in treating 15 years ago. Those things are still
Which is the same time my depression symptoms started showing up. I'M SO SMART.
Depression and anxiety are still issues, but secondary. The ADD has been in the driver's seat.
This isn't the chemical high of Effexor. It's not the mild mood-stabilizing of Wellbutrin. It's not the do-nothing or make-it-worse of the other medications I've tried (seriously, fuck you Prozac). I'm up. It feelsnormal.I have energy to do things. I can focus. I'm able to roll with the punches and pick myself up.
So, in short... oh fuck, I'm high on meth.
Nester
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Good shit bro, keep those positive vibes going and let this feeling snowball into some stability and progress !
Gavinmad
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I feel normal again after forever of not even remembering what normal was. This... it's like getting on an old bike you haven't rode in years. It feels familiar. It's slow and needs a little work, but it's the right bike.
Vaclav
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I'm not a psychiatrist (obviously), but my personal experience with the three issues you're discussing is that the three all feed each other. So I'd be careful about the other two manifesting as time goes on, but definitely sounds like the worst aspect was the ADD for you with how you're doing.
I am capable of the most amazing feats of blind stupidity.
I know the dangers of not keeping my ADD in check, now. Fortunately one thing I've always had going for me is awareness (to a point, anyways). Even in my darkest days I understood what was going on in my head, even if I couldn't break myself out of it.
It's amazing how having actual friends can boost the mood. It's like a piece of my life has suddenly been put back into place. Because it has.
Dandai
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My wife insisted I talk to a doctor about whether ADD medication would be a good idea for me. I wouldn't say I feel depressed, but objectively analyzing my go-to behaviors does suggest otherwise. Glad to hear that you've had success with adderall. It gives me hope that maybe I'll have some success as well, assuming that's what the psych thinks is appropriate.