I reupped my KC membership since it"s been expired for like 2 weeks because I had WAY too many girls to keep track of. Well, as is always the case, they almost all disappeared off the face of the earth. Feast or famine...all the fuckin time. The one with the boyfriend just basically stopped contact for some unknown reason. Guilt maybe, or maybe I lost my edge because I got complaisant that I could have her on a regular basis.
The most recent chick went from being overly forward and too transparent with me to deflecting my invites. This is the chick that threw out a million and 1 shit tests the first night out which I deflected beautifully (and then we had sex). Her body language and skype convos, however, showed she was more into me than she wanted to show. So, thinking she was just really guarded, I started trying to show a little more interest to maybe get her to drop her guard a bit. Well, as is the case EVERY time I decide to do that, she seemed to lose interest.
What really went wrong I think is that I told 19 year old no more sex bc I felt wrong about the power differential, then I became more reliant on the other 2, then boyfriend girl became less available, and suddenly I"m 100% reliant on the one girl. I think that ultimately fucked up my frame. One thing I"ve learned in the past few years is that, while faking it helps, you can never truly achieve indifferent state of mind that girls find so attractive unless you really ARE indifferent. Play games all you want, but the true solution is to actually have multiple girls around.
One thing I learned from that little adventure was, with 3 girls that I was sleeping with in the same period of time, my game was just on fire. I could just feel the confidence oozing out of my body. My frame was indestructible.
Anyway, I reupped my membership and shall try again. Only this time I"ll learn from my mistake and not stop pursing new leads. There is still hope of keeping the latest one around. She"s fun and her body is a-m-a-z-i-n-g, if only she"ll drop the attitude a little bit. I just have to ignore her for a week and hope she suggests we hang out so that I can deny her to retake the frame, haha
Here is the message that I usually send to girls. It"s been fairly successful. Feedback is appreciated.
I saw your profile and like x,y,z
Unfortunately, I think you"re looking for a nice guy. Well I"m a bad man
Bad bad bad
I steal money from old ladies, push little children, and cross the street during a red light.
Bad
I"d also like to get profile feedback since my "about me" section is still fucking terrible. Only...if I post the text here, someone can just google my profile, so that"s out. Anyone who"s good w/ these profiles that can give me some feedback via pm, let me know.