Arbitrary
Tranny Chaser
I found myself falling back into bad habits a few days ago and put League on hold. I started arguing with people again, I wasn't playing very well myself, and I was getting frustrated by failing a couple different series at Plat 2. I don't think it's a coincidence that when I started playing ranked during the preseason with a "I couldn't possibly give a fuck about anything other than my own play" attitude I made it higher on the ladder than I've ever accomplished. I'm just at a bad spot right now where I simultaneously want to push for Diamond but the attempt is going to cause me to play worse.
The more I care about advancing the less likely I am to do so. That's some Buddist shit right there.
At the start of S3 I was put close to Plat at the start and failed nine different best of fives trying to get it. That was a stretch of time that was some of the least enjoyable gaming I've ever had online. On that second failed series for Plat 1 I could see all my same shitty behavior coming back and IknowI was playing way worse. I've stepped back and put more focus on thinking about the game and watching other people play. I do a couple games vs bots a day for IP and some mechanical practice but that's it.
The more I care about advancing the less likely I am to do so. That's some Buddist shit right there.
At the start of S3 I was put close to Plat at the start and failed nine different best of fives trying to get it. That was a stretch of time that was some of the least enjoyable gaming I've ever had online. On that second failed series for Plat 1 I could see all my same shitty behavior coming back and IknowI was playing way worse. I've stepped back and put more focus on thinking about the game and watching other people play. I do a couple games vs bots a day for IP and some mechanical practice but that's it.