his health has been up and down so much over the last 4+ years. we all thought he was doing good. he had done what they told him and all the fluid was gone from his legs/feet, so thought were going to get a little good news. with that said, he is taking it well, but is very tired. don't know if from the kidneys, meds or stress, but he can not sleep and when he does has bad dreams.
after retirement, he did odd work with his best friend all the time. about 2 years ago, while being over a decade younger he friend passed away.. dad is very old school and rarely openly shows sadness or grief, but that was probably the lowest i ever seen him. mom gets so frustrated with him for seemingly being so aimless, so i have to explain he was always a hard worker and wanted to finish a job/project no matter how long it took. he doesn't have hobbies or like to piddling around. on that front he has been lost for a while.
in a sad turn of events, my mom's older sister had to take care of her granddaughter. i am an only child and never had any kids, so dad and her bonded, she has been for everything but name, his grand kid. she and her husband are coming to visit this weekend. i think after that, his will to keep going will rapidly fade.
dad doesn't really like to take photos and certain not vids.
unlike my dad, i am a emotional wreck. in 2021, my best friend died in an accident. still can not look at old photos. just seeing his avatar/chat icon is almost enough to cause a breakdown. don't think if recording anything now, could separate it from what i feel now.
i have been blessed with being able to spend a lot of time in the passed 20 years with him. he has 100's of stories and even though heard them all, still enjoyed listing to them over and over.
