Friends through work with a married woman. The company I work for manages her account. I change to a different company and she follows to the company I move to so I can manage her account. I break my ankle Sept. 30th, the day before I start her account. It started off as emails checking to see how I was doing, but it grew into personal conversations. She sent one email showing off her new haircut and dye through self iPhone pics. During that time, I made a couple of half assed attempts to get her to stop, but nothing. Not because I do not like it, but because of my past and I have this idea that because of what happened to me, I can't let happen to someone else. She kept saying things were innocent and it was only harmless fun. She says a lot of good things about her husband, but she also talks about how he ignores her and doesnt give her the attention she craves. Considering this is how I treated my ex, I feel for her because I am sorry for what I did to my ex.
Weds evening she contacted me on her way home (first time talking out of business hours). She asked what i was doing and I told her I was grilling and drinking before the ice storm hit. She asked me to keep drinking and she would email me later. We talked from 8:30 until 1 am. Her husband was sick and she was in another room chatting with me. I liked the conversation. She even tried to go to a little bit of sex talk and I kept things on track. She asked me if I liked her more than a friend and I reminded her that she was married. She asked what I felt about her and I told her that I hoped she was never unhappy.
Thursday morning she emails me around 10am and asks me if I thought things were awkward. I told her No. She said that she felt awkward and the lunch plans that she had initially asked me to the week before (we had never had lunch together before) would need to be cancelled because she felt things were different. Then I get this HUGE email basically saying "If you cant be my friend with out there being any emotions involved, then we should stop talking" I said 'Whatever you prefer" and she responded with a cut and paste of what she had typed before and added "Its not what I prefer, can you do that?" Then she says that she needed a break from the texting/emailing and she would holler at me later. This was around noon on Thurs. I didnt respond.
Since I have met her, I have been extremely nice to her. More so than I probably would do with someone else. She is very attractive, enjoys music very much like I do and has a lot of the same tastes in entertainment and food. The biggest thing is, married or not, she totally digs me. She is always checking to see how I am doing, how my day is going, what I had for lunch today, etc.. It's things that would bug the shit out of me if it was someone else, but because it is her, I like it.
I am not really sure what I am going to do from here. I feel either way I go, I am screwed. I do the right thing and stop talking to her, I could lose out on someone that was good for me. I go for it, I become a hypocrite and then eventually get screwed over because she cheats on me with someone else.
I seriously cannot wait until sex-bots.
