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    So My Wife Died...

    My son's 7th birthday is in a couple of weeks and today I decided I'd procrastinated enough. It was time to start practicing his letter from mom and getting his gift in order. I really don't want these letters from her to be any more sad than they already are because of me. I read it aloud...
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    You know you're getting old when.....

    ... when your kids go to two roller skating/ blading birthday parties in the last month and they tell you they want me to do it with them this weekend at the park down the street. So you buy roller blades and even though you're 45 and haven't been on skates since 1991 and you assume it'll come...
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    Dating

    I won't refute this. So the first woman I wound up having sex with post wife was something else. She was kind of a bigger girl (but not big big, I don't even know if big is the right description), pretty face, big boobs. Outgoing, but super wholesome. She was a big fan of trivia nights and...
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    Dating

    I did it just to take the pressure off and it worked like a charm. Just having it as a backup let me get out of my own head. And with HIMS being an app, you don't even have to do anything except press some buttons. I'm sure you'll be fine, I just wanted to take the chance out of the equation.
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    So My Wife Died...

    You aren't threadjacking - jump in and say whatever is on your mind. I'm sorry you're going through it. How old are your kids? It's interesting the different perspective people have (sudden vs prolonged), I looked at it like a benefit, I had some time to prepare mentally, and she had time to...
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    So My Wife Died...

    It's funny you mention this as it came up recently for me. I really felt the same way, but then I was home a whole lot by myself. It's winter here forever which does a number on you, and I work from home anyway. I have some friends from around here, but most of my friends from college and...
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    Dating

    I'll get to my stories, but first let's start with you. Well my friend. You're pretty much fucked. Recently divorced mid forties guy is like fucking plutonium to a lot of these women. Either they're coming out of a divorce and are looking to see what malevolent character traits blew up your...
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    So My Wife Died...

    Two years ago today. I think every year since I turned 18, the years have gone by faster and faster. The kids are good. I'm good. There are times when it is nearly unbearably shitty. Like when one of them does some milestone level thing and she isn't there, or when they're both sick and I'm...
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    Who died? (Celebrity Deaths)

    Shannon Doherty at 53. fucking Cancer.
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    Health Problems

    Is she talking to anyone professionally since her mastectomy? If not, I think that would be a good idea. Also, there are facebook groups solely dedicated to women that have had a hysterectomy, mastectomy, or both a hysterectomy and mastectomy so there's a lot out there to be a part of. My...
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    Funny, Strange, Random Pics

    When I first scrolled by this and didn't read the text I assumed it had something to do with this:
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    Parent Thread

    I think just based on this cliff notes version of your relationship that doing nothing would leave you with regret. So, I say make more of an effort (go visit, try and call more, whatever) but have some clear lines in your own mind that when crossed you can say to yourself "Fuck this, I tried"...
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    So My Wife Died...

    Follow up to yesterday. The videos I didn't want to watch, the outtakes from my wife's recording. They weren't outtakes. At least based on the 8 minutes or so I made it through. They are different messages to the kids for different things. Things like if they aren't listening to me. If Rob...
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    So My Wife Died...

    Sorry I didn't respond earlier. I started a couple of times, but figured it was better to just wait until today. Today is the first anniversary of her death. Today sucks, but not as much as I thought it would. Leading up to today was so much worse. I have one drive and every morning I get...
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    Health Problems

    I mentioned it earlier in the thread but I highly suggest miralax over milk of magnesia if you can ask your doctor. I've had both and by the end choking down that chalky shit made me want to fucking yack.
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    Health Problems

    My wife had constant sharp bits of pain when she tried to move in certain ways for a large chunk of the healing process. She was starting to freak out that it was some nerve or something that would be there forever. She got really down about it. Turned out it was the staples themselves. When...
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    Health Problems

    How's she doing?
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    Health Problems

    What did they give her for the pain to take home? Either way , It'll be a hard couple of days but it will start to get better. Before you know it you'll be draining those armpit tube things like a pro.
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    Health Problems

    You've got this. Today is a stress filled anxiety ridden day but tomorrow is the first day of the rest of your lives and that's awesome.
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    Health Problems

    My kids are too young for cough medicine and my daughter was just coughing non stop through the night. She wasn't sleeping which meant I wasn't sleeping. I had to try something. Anything. So I found this and it worked wonders for her overnight. Then I got a cough and this shit is like the...
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    Health Problems

    I haven't had my levels checked in like 4 years (last time was when we were trying to conceive our second kid). I hadn't considered it but I see my primary in just over a month so I'll ask.
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    Health Problems

    As part of the 3 months of perpetual sickness which included a chest infection post surgery. I was put on a course of steroids and it was fucking awesome. Back pain was better, energy was better. I was never so sad as when I had to taper off of it.
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    Health Problems

    Careful, there's a better than average chance that one of the degenerates around here asks for a boob pic before they're gone forever.
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    Health Problems

    Holy. Shit. I'm sorry you're having to go through this. Oblio did a great job of outlining the positives and there isn't much I can add there. The only things I would say are: My wife was all about lopping her boob off, we made a similar joke about losing some weight. She was planning on...
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    Depression

    Yeah there's pics of the kids with the dog, pics of her, I'm not terribly bugged out by her DOB or date of her passing, anyone trying to lift it probably wouldn't lift it from this forum - its obtainable in a lot of different places online already. I mean her obit had this info (along with...
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    Depression

    If you think this is bad, don't look at the entire thread about her dying...
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    Depression

    This. I talk to my wife all the time. I have it facing the sunrise. Every night I put my hand on her urn and talk about the kids or the day. But if I need to i talk to her during the day too. It helps. I'm not religious, I don't believe she's hearing me but it helps just the same. I kind of...
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    Twitch.tv

    I clicked on that link and one of the streams with the most viewers was some freak playing anime porn of what looked like a child blowing someone while peeing herself. This is fucked. I don't see how this doesn't change. I'll never look at that category again but the fact that this is...
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    Twitch.tv

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    Marriage and the Power of Divorce

    Congrats! My wife and I had a trust established with language such that everything is either already in there or would go in there when I croak. I imagine a pre-nup wouldn't go over very well with your lady, so it's probably the best way to go.
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    So My Wife Died...

    That is a question I also had over the last couple of days. I certainly haven't been told I can't go to the property.
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    So My Wife Died...

    I actually did mention this to them. I told Bro 2 he would be the Erin Brockovich of their home town. And I 100% agree that we probably won't find anything and that's kind of the whole point. It still provides helpful information for me and I would have hoped at least some form of peace of...
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    So My Wife Died...

    And so it begins... Incoming word vomit that would also fit in the Jimmies Rustled thread. As I mentioned across these posts, my wife developed her cancer at 40. Her father's cancer hit when he was 40 and he lived with it off and on for the next 20 years. Her mother wasn't diagnosed until she...
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    Health Problems

    My wife's father was intensely allergic to gluten and only developed the allergy in his 40s. His mother was also celiac, however she tested positive for the allergy while throughout his life he was tested many times and it never showed a positive result. Proof was in the pudding though, as he...
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    So My Wife Died...

    Thanks Man. I really do appreciate it. The colds between me and the kids are killing me. 6 fucking weeks. Then 2 days ago they both spiked fever's over 103. Boogers, watery eyes, the works. I just went yesterday and got diagnosed with bronchitis and mild pneumonia myself. My parents are both...
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    Health Problems

    They have you doing Miralax or Milk of Magnesia? I've done both, but fuck Milk of Magnesia that shit is too gross. Never again.
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    So My Wife Died...

    I hear you. Honestly it isn't so much that I feel like my life is over, I'm just real tired and I thought the tank would last a lot longer before it felt like it was getting towards E. Part of that has to be all of us being sick for a month, it starting to head in to winter here in Maine...
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    So My Wife Died...

    I don't know that I'll feel guilty for my wife. As I mentioned she was pretty adamant that I find someone else. Honestly I'll feel guilty for the person I'm with. They'll never get 100% of me. Like you guys are talking about. I just don't have that to give. I don't think I could love...
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    So My Wife Died...

    And just like that, half a year gone. I've found myself thinking about what that number means, and it leads me to think about other dates and timeframes, things that in the grand scheme of things don't really matter a whole lot. A lot like some baseball stats in that way. At the end of the...
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    Pan'Theon: Rise' of th'e Fal'Len - #1 Thread in MMO

    Lucked out and randomly caught Asmongold watch and shit on Pantheon for the last 40 minutes or so.