Depression
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bixxby
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Or just 2 hours north where I live, you could probably live forever in a meth trailer bangin toothless girls and staying high as a kite if you can afford to live in ATL.
For real though, you're gonna be alright bud. Hit the gym, there's still a whole day left to play warcraft / try to move ahead in life.
For real though, you're gonna be alright bud. Hit the gym, there's still a whole day left to play warcraft / try to move ahead in life.
Mrs. Gravy
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I am still trying to determine if I am experiencing depression or if it is just still grief; probably following my own advice and seeking a professional would be helpful. I just haven't been able to make that call; plus I never do anything in a hurry...I am very deliberate in decision making for "big" things. It used to make G crazy.
So here goes: I cry every single day; usually en route to work or home but also at the drop of a hat with certain songs, smells or sights if they are even remotely attached to my beloved. Although I am keeping myself very busy with work, family, maintaining the house and volunteering at things, I still manage to feel alone in a crowd and sometimes don't find joy in things I typically have. I cannot bring myself to put away/give away any of G's things. They are all still where he left them. I buy the soap and shower gel he used and squeeze it onto the floor of the shower so when I am in there, it smells like him. I still haven't put away all of the photo displays and photos from the FUNeral. I spray his cologne on his Chiefs t-shirt and sleep in it sometimes. I write this here for therapy. I am effed up.
So here goes: I cry every single day; usually en route to work or home but also at the drop of a hat with certain songs, smells or sights if they are even remotely attached to my beloved. Although I am keeping myself very busy with work, family, maintaining the house and volunteering at things, I still manage to feel alone in a crowd and sometimes don't find joy in things I typically have. I cannot bring myself to put away/give away any of G's things. They are all still where he left them. I buy the soap and shower gel he used and squeeze it onto the floor of the shower so when I am in there, it smells like him. I still haven't put away all of the photo displays and photos from the FUNeral. I spray his cologne on his Chiefs t-shirt and sleep in it sometimes. I write this here for therapy. I am effed up.
TrollfaceDeux
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You miss your husband. Being reminded of him makes you feel good, albeit sad sometimes. For as much as it seems like you two loved each other, this is seems pretty normal to me. Grieving is good and healthy, and allowing yourself to experience it is the best things you can do for yourself. Nothing about that is messed up.
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TrollfaceDeux
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This is true.
Some of us, at least from my country, we mourn for our dead for about a year nonstop. That means no work. Just grieving everyday, every week, and every month. There is probably no fix for this. Just grieve. Take time off from work. Do it properly.
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Homsar
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I'm going to read through this thread tonight and tomorrow, is there anything serious I should know about Lexapro in case it isnt covered already?
I've been on Methylphenidate, Concerta, Vyvance ect for years and I'm supposed to start taking Lexapro tomorrow also. I hate taking medicine so typically find ways to forget it in the morning and throw it away, I will probably to the same with an SSRI but Im willing to try and see if can help
I've been on Methylphenidate, Concerta, Vyvance ect for years and I'm supposed to start taking Lexapro tomorrow also. I hate taking medicine so typically find ways to forget it in the morning and throw it away, I will probably to the same with an SSRI but Im willing to try and see if can help
Gavinmad
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Yeah there's something really serious. Take your fucking medicine instead of throwing it away you goddamn retard.
On a subject that is completely unrelated to my unprovoked hostility this morning, just found out one of my oldest friends is dying of congestive heart failure, and he made it sound like he won't be able to get a transplant in time.
TrollfaceDeux
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it dulls the focus of the brain like train of thought and other negative inducing symptoms. basically dulls it so you don't feel as much.
it certainly helps you avoid depression or minimize it to a degree. cuz once you are depressed, it is hard to get out of. if it is dulled, it is much easier to get out and harder to get in.
i recommend it. it's only like 0.50 cents per pill so whatever.
i have the same thing. it works ok.
it dulls the focus of the brain like train of thought and other negative inducing symptoms. basically dulls it so you don't feel as much.
it certainly helps you avoid depression or minimize it to a degree. cuz once you are depressed, it is hard to get out of. if it is dulled, it is much easier to get out and harder to get in.
i recommend it. it's only like 0.50 cents per pill so whatever.
pharmakos
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Taking an SSRI sporadically like that can greatly increase most of the undesirable side effects.
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Vanderhoof
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Lexapro can take up to 8 weeks to work.
And Mrs. G, it's normal to grieve. It's impossible to me say how long you should grieve. If it continues to interfere with your life beyond a point you feel is tolerable, I'd consider medication. Seeing a therapist might help process grief.
And Mrs. G, it's normal to grieve. It's impossible to me say how long you should grieve. If it continues to interfere with your life beyond a point you feel is tolerable, I'd consider medication. Seeing a therapist might help process grief.
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Big_w_powah
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Mrs. Gravy
I'm going to be completely honest with you; You aren't crazy.That said, some depression is normal in the grieving process. Its stage 4 of the 5 stages of grieving. (The 5 Stages of Grief & Loss | Psych Central).
There is no right answer to any question you have regarding this. If it feels right, feels better when you're done and not harming anyone, then do it. I will say it sounds like you are having some trouble coping, and even beginning to accept, the harsh reality of your situation (sorry to be gruff). At this point, I'd avoid medication. I doubt it'll provide any help in moving into the acceptance stage, and you don't sound like you're in a situation where you need it. That's my opinion, and its far from professional.
What I would seek, and you seem to have already come to said conclusion, is a therapist. Its never a bad starting point. Go to one session, see if it helps. See if you feel better. Look at it this way; You come to these forums because we're an ear that's not going to pat you on your back and go "oh you poor thing"..We're just going to attempt to honestly help (or troll, but we're ignoring the negative)...But we're even a biased opinion.
Imagine this forum, with a face you can talk to, whose professionally trained to help you understand whats going on inside. That's what therapy should be for you. There's no shame in it.
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Ignatius
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So my dad passed last week, and my grandmother a few days after.
My dad has been fighting cancer since 2014, was "cured" then it came back with a vegence in November of 2016.
He went in because he wasn't feeling good, promised it wasn't overnight, and a week later was dead.
I'm the oldest of three sons, and doing my best to keep a strong front up for my younger brothers.
The second I'm alone I absolutely lose my shit.
I miss my dad so much. I keep wanting to call him text him email him about the most inconsequential things and it keeps hitting me that I can't.
Not really a question, I'm just sitting here in bed and I can't sleep.
My dad has been fighting cancer since 2014, was "cured" then it came back with a vegence in November of 2016.
He went in because he wasn't feeling good, promised it wasn't overnight, and a week later was dead.
I'm the oldest of three sons, and doing my best to keep a strong front up for my younger brothers.
The second I'm alone I absolutely lose my shit.
I miss my dad so much. I keep wanting to call him text him email him about the most inconsequential things and it keeps hitting me that I can't.
Not really a question, I'm just sitting here in bed and I can't sleep.
Kiroy
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Sorry bud, how old was he? People die, just the way it is. Sucks balls but ya gotta keep on keeping on.
Ignatius
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58. It wasn't really the cancer that killed him. He got an infection around the same time he started immunotherapy.
Apparently the symptoms of both are similar so he though it was just something he'd have to deal with until it got so bad we had to bring him in.
They didn't know where it was so they bombed him with antibiotics. Add that to his already weak kidneys, his liver cancer, and then finally the cat scan die (he fell in the hospital...I had just left) and the kidneys shut down which led to heart attack.
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So I posted this back in August and since then things have only gotten worse. For lack of a better work I feel "broken", I don't know where to begin to pick up pieces or how to do anything. I dove back into World of Warcraft which is an escape in a way but it isn't productive at all. I pretty much spend most days in my apartment with little interaction outside, I have one close friend who started a weed business out in Oregon and thought about moving out there to help him and even invested about $25k in his company foolishly, but I am not sure that is working out and seems to be just another bad decision. Sadly I have a habit of helping my friends out whenever needed and rarely does it ever feel it's reciprocated.
One thing that has struck me very hard in all of this is many of my so called friends and peers were always around when I was running the company and now that I am no longer in that position they disappear rather quickly. People whom I helped find jobs in the industry and other things just blow me off. I am sure it's partly because I am cynical but I feel betrayed on almost all sides. I have been doing some consulting work here and there to supplement my income but my lease it up in a couple of months and at this point I just want to be the hell out of Atlanta.
Half of the days go by and I think of killing myself but I know that isn't something I would do, however the thought of it comes up over and over. Most normal people get over relationships and get over work failures move on and try and find something new. Here I feel like I lost everything, I lost my partner, I lose my timeline for having kids, I lost my career and I don't know how to start over. My lawsuit against my old business partner has been dragged out and it might even take another year which has drained me financially and emotionally. I am not even sure why I am posting this but maybe there is someone here who can help give me some advice. Or maybe there is someone here who can help me find a new career path. I am spending most of this week updating my resume and things and I feel like I am willing to move anywhere in the states and maybe even out of the country if there opportunity presented itself. I am about 4-5 months before I reach the end of my line and I have to do something I just don't know what anymore.