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Yeah, was a similar experience today on the other end for the hike. Looked like a no kings protest, but everyone was nice, picked up some trash, and learned about some native plants and birds. I guess it’s the Sierra Club, so not sure what else I expected, but still was fun, relaxing, got some sun and exercise and did some community service.
If you can, when you go on these outings, make it a goal to get at least one phone number of someone you think you maybe could be friends with (doesn't have to be 100%, just someone who isn't an annoying cunt).

Then make an effort to connect with that person at least once, and see if they reciprocate. If they don't, thats fine. If they do, you have a budding new friendship. Do this every time, and before you know it you'll have a circle of friends, you can introduce your other friends to each other and create new circles, and start doing events with your friends rather than doing events to meet friends.
 
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saw my pcp today, starting me on citalopram. (heard bad things) also checking testosterone, estrogen and some thyroid/parathyroid levels. (had 2 of 4 parathyroids removed last year) also going to try therapy, but live in a rural area, so might take a while before can start that.
guess bottled up so much over the last few years causing issues.
 
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saw my pcp today, starting me on citalopram. (heard bad things) also checking testosterone, estrogen and some thyroid/parathyroid levels. (had 2 of 4 parathyroids removed last year) also going to try therapy, but live in a rural area, so might take a while before can start that.
guess bottled up so much over the last few years causing issues.
Citalopram is bad news.

If you do get on it and decide you want to get off, don’t quit cold turkey, major side effects trying to come off that garbage drug.
 
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FWIW, that's what I was put on back in 2014/15. Only side effects I had was just some weird sleep for a bit (not that my sleep's ever been normal...). Got off of it after about 6 months or so just tapering off and had no issues there, either.
 
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Read the last couple pages after not reading the thread in a while. Good job actively doing stuff, connecting with the parents and pooping. Keep it up Koushirou Koushirou
 
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Well, I might not be able to do eeet. I am seeing just how fucked I am right now after this lay off. I can't afford my condo. I am not seeing any even remotely decent jobs right now, and I am just one of 10s of thousands of layoffs this week that are in need of work. I won't be able to afford my meds once my insurance runs out. I'm trying to stay positive, but I am alone in this, and I am struggling to find a reason to keep trying.
 
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Well, I might not be able to do eeet. I am seeing just how fucked I am right now after this lay off. I can't afford my condo. I am not seeing any even remotely decent jobs right now, and I am just one of 10s of thousands of layoffs this week that are in need of work. I won't be able to afford my meds once my insurance runs out. I'm trying to stay positive, but I am alone in this, and I am struggling to find a reason to keep trying.
The Credit Union that has my loans sent out a form of forgiveness, or deferral type, program to its clients that are directly related to the government shutdown. Might want to ask if there is something similar for your condo/vehicle. At least pushing off a portion of your expenses for a while. Taking a lesser job than what you're qualified for always sucks, but if its more than unemployment - then that is the obvious/only choice. Then, as you're working that job - you'll have the motivation to keep looking for a better job.

I got a DUI back in April, court was in the tail end of September and just spent the last month in jail. The business went to shit in a hand basket and I lost quite a few contracts.. in just one months time. I learned a valuable lesson not only from the DUI, but that if something was to happen to me - that my business is going to crater without me. I'm trying to find a job to supplement my income. But per Virginia, I cant even get a restricted license for another 90 days (120 days total). I can walk to my office, but thats not helping me make the money I lost, back. Not only is the market flooded with people in the very same situation as you, but all my certificates for lending and insurances has expired in the state of VA - so I cant even do what Im good at without spending money on exams and waiting for my certificates to arrive by fucking snail mail USPS.

I had to put my classes on hold for the DUI, because I didnt know what the outcome would be. I skipped Summer because court was originally for then. The lawyer pushed court back to get a more lenient Judge/Prosecutor. Then I skipped Fall semester because courts actual date. Now I have to skip spring because I wont be able to get to the actual fucking school. So I cant even pursue an educational degree in my desired field and Im scared that if Liberty finds out, that I might get removed from the Law program entirely.

This was the second DUI I had, one back in 2016 for keys in the ignition sitting in a parking lot, and this one going through a check point with just two bottle beers in my system. My lesson is finally sinking in that Im just too fucking old to be going through this shit, never mind my losses - and Im just done drinking any alcohol. I wasnt a big drinker anymore anyways, but all the money Im paying, how much potential money Im losing, and the restrictions placed on me for a second dui in 10. This isnt even accounting for the fact that the last 30 days in jail, I was surrounded by fucking idiots that just made me examine my life that much more closer. I must be just as fucking dumb as these morons to be stuck in jail with them. (Not really. The jail here is probably 70% meth dealer/possession people. Talking to them, and I bet all of them together couldnt make a full mouth of teeth.) (Jail time, license suspension, and restricted time are all minimum mandatory sentences. I feel bad for people with worse charges.)

What Im really trying to say is that regardless of how we got into this position, we best take it as a learning experience and work with the cards we've got. You're a smart guy, Moon. Just think of the complete dumb asses that are looking for a job with you. You should look like the cream of the crop in comparison.
 
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Well, I might not be able to do eeet. I am seeing just how fucked I am right now after this lay off. I can't afford my condo. I am not seeing any even remotely decent jobs right now, and I am just one of 10s of thousands of layoffs this week that are in need of work. I won't be able to afford my meds once my insurance runs out. I'm trying to stay positive, but I am alone in this, and I am struggling to find a reason to keep trying.
I'm so sorry. You've been a massive help to me in this thread and it makes me sad to see you now going through this similar bullshit. I'd try to give some (probably useless) advice or some feel good shit, but I feel like you'd be able to do that a lot better than I ever could. I'm rooting for you, though, if that's any help.
 
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The Credit Union that has my loans sent out a form of forgiveness, or deferral type, program to its clients that are directly related to the government shutdown. Might want to ask if there is something similar for your condo/vehicle. At least pushing off a portion of your expenses for a while. Taking a lesser job than what you're qualified for always sucks, but if its more than unemployment - then that is the obvious/only choice. Then, as you're working that job - you'll have the motivation to keep looking for a better job.

I got a DUI back in April, court was in the tail end of September and just spent the last month in jail. The business went to shit in a hand basket and I lost quite a few contracts.. in just one months time. I learned a valuable lesson not only from the DUI, but that if something was to happen to me - that my business is going to crater without me. I'm trying to find a job to supplement my income. But per Virginia, I cant even get a restricted license for another 90 days (120 days total). I can walk to my office, but thats not helping me make the money I lost, back. Not only is the market flooded with people in the very same situation as you, but all my certificates for lending and insurances has expired in the state of VA - so I cant even do what Im good at without spending money on exams and waiting for my certificates to arrive by fucking snail mail USPS.

I had to put my classes on hold for the DUI, because I didnt know what the outcome would be. I skipped Summer because court was originally for then. The lawyer pushed court back to get a more lenient Judge/Prosecutor. Then I skipped Fall semester because courts actual date. Now I have to skip spring because I wont be able to get to the actual fucking school. So I cant even pursue an educational degree in my desired field and Im scared that if Liberty finds out, that I might get removed from the Law program entirely.

This was the second DUI I had, one back in 2016 for keys in the ignition sitting in a parking lot, and this one going through a check point with just two bottle beers in my system. My lesson is finally sinking in that Im just too fucking old to be going through this shit, never mind my losses - and Im just done drinking any alcohol. I wasnt a big drinker anymore anyways, but all the money Im paying, how much potential money Im losing, and the restrictions placed on me for a second dui in 10. This isnt even accounting for the fact that the last 30 days in jail, I was surrounded by fucking idiots that just made me examine my life that much more closer. I must be just as fucking dumb as these morons to be stuck in jail with them. (Not really. The jail here is probably 70% meth dealer/possession people. Talking to them, and I bet all of them together couldnt make a full mouth of teeth.) (Jail time, license suspension, and restricted time are all minimum mandatory sentences. I feel bad for people with worse charges.)

What Im really trying to say is that regardless of how we got into this position, we best take it as a learning experience and work with the cards we've got. You're a smart guy, Moon. Just think of the complete dumb asses that are looking for a job with you. You should look like the cream of the crop in comparison.
Just talked to my 401k company. Found out if I shut it all down I could have enough to live for a year or two if it comes to that. Think I will give it a few more weeks before I make any real decisions.
 
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Just talked to my 401k company. Found out if I shut it all down I could have enough to live for a year or two if it comes to that. Think I will give it a few more weeks before I make any real decisions.
If possible, 401k is last thing you want to raid. Might have to settle for sell the condo and find a rental trailer esque home. (Dont buy one, sack of shit brother sold his dump in firestone for 300k!!)
 
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WTF, 2 beers?

I dunno if we're allowed to debate DUI laws in the grownup section but 2 beers isnt even buzzed. Sorry man that blows.
If you drink regular sure. If I pounded 2 Guinness in 20 minutes I'd be feeling it, granted id still probably feel probably drive worthy.

Discounting alcoholics, I did always kinda want to have a tester to see what you feel like at the legal limit, could be the case that ya a rare drinker is arguably impaired, but someone that drinks a case a week is perfectly fine.

Love twice a year I'll get a small case, but I pretty much stopped myself. Not worth the $, calories, and anything other than beer I tend to get headaches now
 
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Never tried therapy, went Friday for eval and first session yesterday. Wasn't really impressed with the lady. Started repeating stuff after 20 minutes. She talked about setting up long term goals next meeting, so will at least go to that and see those.
 
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