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  1. Koushirou

    Depression

    I remember when I was young, my mom told me I had to use my “womanly wiles.” I thought that meant flashing people and wondered why on earth my mom would want me to do that.
  2. Koushirou

    Depression

    Keep trying. You're not getting them, sir.
  3. Koushirou

    Depression

    Spent most of therapy today trying to figure out what I want to do with my family. I don’t want to cut them off, I’m pretty sure, but I am feeling hurt and do feel like being a petty bitch and letting them know that. I don’t really want to go to OC with them, but maybe instead of going the whole...
  4. Koushirou

    Pets

    I'm not sure it'd be worth it at this point. Almost everything is going to just be a pre-existing condition at this point and not covered.
  5. Koushirou

    Depression

    Haven’t gone anywhere, sorry. Didn’t mean to make my bitching sound so final solution-y. I’m just exhausted from trying. Want to just say fuck it and cut my family off and just not deal with it. Fuck hoping for a relationship, fuck my job, fuck the therapy, and just ride out being miserable and...
  6. Koushirou

    Depression

    He’s a big man, now, but he still has his baby voice. Husband plans to take him whenever he moves out and it breaks my heart. It would be selfish of me to keep all three cats, though. I worry because he and Arya get along so well and play with each other all the time. Just also sucks not being...
  7. Koushirou

    Depression

    I think I'm ready to give up. I've just got too many issues, too much baggage. No one's going to want to deal with that from me. The therapy's helped in determining the why of things, but I still feel completely powerless to do anything about them in any meaningful way. I've been this way...
  8. Koushirou

    Someone on reddit recommended this message board

    Welcome, fag.
  9. Koushirou

    Marriage and the Power of Divorce

    Is there like some guide to communication in general? Some ways to practice? Anything? I'm fucking terrible at it. Anytime there was a problem I would only ever bring it up once and if it got brushed aside, I just buried it and was done with it, but that's obviously a shit way to do things and...
  10. Koushirou

    Depression

    Pretty sure he had the same reaction when he learned I hang out here on FoH.
  11. Koushirou

    Whats rustling your jimmies?

    Nextdoor's shit probably rustles me the most with this. They have an option to show newest first...but it's an option that fucking expires, so after 60 days you have to remember to select it again. What the actual fuck.
  12. Koushirou

    What tickles your pickle

    And I guarantee you a large number of people still clicked that shit. I work for a damn cybersecurity company and we still get a 3% hit on the fucking “you won an Amazon gift card” phishing campaigns. It’s depressing.
  13. Koushirou

    So My Wife Died...

    I’ve always appreciated your posts here. I think they help give some hope and insight that when shitty things happen, it’s still possible to get through it and life can still go on if you can be strong.
  14. Koushirou

    Whats rustling your jimmies?

    Another bitch I have is while I’m on the engineering team I’m also stuck doing operational shit for our content production team (a hell I don’t think I’ll ever be free from) and the dumbasses on that team are constantly contacting me as they make their little project plans for the year asking if...
  15. Koushirou

    Depression

    Parents got home from their month-long vacation the other day. Stopped by my house on their way home. Got maybe 10 minutes with them. Didn’t even get to do a lunch or something before they went home. Told them as usual to text me when they’re home since it’s a long drive. Never got a text so I...
  16. Koushirou

    Whats rustling your jimmies?

    I don't think there's anything more fucking rustling that some fucker pinging me on Slack to let me know they sent me an email. I saw your fucking email, I'll respond to it when I feel it's important enough to.
  17. Koushirou

    Post Your Pet

    I've always wanted to harness train my cats. Arya I was able to teach her to get into the harness fine, but I would just walk her around my old apartment hallway and the slightest noise she would freak out at. Tried to expose her plenty to that before I tried taking her outside, but she never...
  18. Koushirou

    Depression

    Give 'er the ol'
  19. Koushirou

    Depression

    Yep, sure enough brother had to cancel our meet-up Saturday for some other event. Disappointing, but expected.
  20. Koushirou

    Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion Remastered

    What is the go-to mod for taking the enemy scaling out? I remember that being one of the biggest complaints about Oblivion back in the day and it did always sound retarded.
  21. Koushirou

    Andor

    Costume design has definitely been on point for all the socialites.
  22. Koushirou

    Andor

    Her actress is amazing. I also like how it tied right into Perrin's speech that he gave about trying to just use the merriment to drown away all the bullshit in life.
  23. Koushirou

    Erenshor

    The companions thing kind of reminds me of the old .hack// games on PS2. Granted, those were all scripted, etc. but had the idea of having various party members you'd chat with on the BBS, join up for quests in the game, etc. At a time when I couldn't play EQ anymore, it was the closest thing...
  24. Koushirou

    Andor

    Their shit just reminds me of Dwight and Angela from The Office. It's so fucking awkward and weird but who the hell else would they end up with?
  25. Koushirou

    Andor

    Man, we’re only three episodes in and they already went hard.
  26. Koushirou

    Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion Remastered

    I didn't play this nearly enough when it first came out. Time to dive back in, I think.
  27. Koushirou

    Depression

    He's pretty much consistently busy, whether it's stuff with his kids, work trips or vacations. Every now and then he'll agree to do something together, but it always falls through. He did say he wanted to come and hang out at the casino where my concert this weekend is beforehand, but yeah...
  28. Koushirou

    Depression

    Brother only lives like an hour away, so not really a reasonable ask. Even if I did get them to stop by the house, they'd just be driving over to his once they were done since it's close enough. Will have to see if there's any other groups or clubs or whatever around here. I don't really...
  29. Koushirou

    Depression

    Me having that conversation is what stopped them from inviting me. They also won't stay overnight with me when they have a whole bedroom of their own at my brother's place and won't sleep in anything smaller than a king bed (which husband and I didn't even have for us, much less guests). I...
  30. Koushirou

    Depression

    I wish I got to spend more time with my parents, but that's a whole nother problem in general. Compared to my brother, I've always felt like an afterthought to them, even though they're more than happy to throw financial support at me if I need it (I refuse to ever ask for it). They'll never...
  31. Koushirou

    Depression

    Sadly, the LGS near here just isn't good. Small place, not much variety and honestly the people sucked. Used to play Magic there once or twice a week, but finding decent people to play with was basically impossible. Either no one wanted to play with us or the people we got stuck with were...
  32. Koushirou

    Depression

    Therapist has been encouraging me to go out and do shit on my own. This is something I pretty much never do, because it feels pointless. One example is I’ve never just gone to a sit down restaurant by myself. Just seems awkward and sad. Didn’t have anything to do or any family to join for Easter...
  33. Koushirou

    Sports Entertainment

    And that's it? No way...
  34. Koushirou

    Sports Entertainment

    What a lame way to end it. Expected Cena to win, even wanted it, but fuck Travis Scott and fuck that dumb shit. He needed far more than a single finisher on him to make up for that bullshit.
  35. Koushirou

    Sports Entertainment

    Fuck's sake, really? Do we have to do this dumb Travis Scott shit?
  36. Koushirou

    Sports Entertainment

    OMG OMG OMG OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
  37. Koushirou

    Sports Entertainment

    I do but was able to watch it in tiny mode on my phone. Was good shit.
  38. Koushirou

    Sports Entertainment

    Fucking power went out right before the main event. RIP
  39. Koushirou

    The Fast Food Thread

    I get my Screamin' Sicilian on sale regularly for $5-6 each. The mother of meat is BiS.
  40. Koushirou

    Health Problems

    I feel like that's definitely one of the bites you're absolutely supposed to go see a doc for, if you haven't yet.