I keep repeating the same patterns no matter what I do. I don't know how to stop this.
As a smoker and high-functioning alcoholic(some here would say otherwise) it really will come down to me having my priorities being forced on me.I keep repeating the same patterns no matter what I do. I don't know how to stop this.
iannis did offer some great advice. A lot of times the chemical addiction is only a part of it. If you are using those moments of being "fucked up" to either hide, disguise or otherwise ignore another aspect of your life you don't like, it might be worthwhile to talk with a therapist about any other issues going on. I just like being drunk everyday. Still a problem however.I have an alcohol and drug problem. I can't seem to stay sober more than two weeks at a time. I'm reaching out to you strangers for advice.
zzeris Exactly. I went to a comedy show in Brooklyn which just so happened to be held in a fucking distillery. Cue the "oh let's have one drink", fast forward to running around midtown coked up doing crazy shit.
The hardest part on staying sober is feeling like I can't do anything because everything in this fucking city, fuck that, everywhere seems to revolve around drinking. This is my struggle.
Yeah and sometimes it might require an entire change in lifestyle. Cutting certain people out (or seeing them in a different dynamic than just going out partying). I fucking LOVE coke and know for a fact that if I went down that path I would be doing it almost as much as I drink. I had to remove certain people from my activities to keep that in check and to be honest, it made me enjoy coke a lot more because of the "specialness" of it when I do do it.
Not at all actually. No gin blossoms or discoloration. Even when I'm super tanked. I have talked with a few friends and for the most part they have a hard time telling when I am drunk or sober unless I am SUPER drunk because I get Ron Swanson giggly.Scream, how red does your face get every time you drink? I have a friend and we can literally watch his BP go up while drinking with the guys.