moonarchia
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Dude, you should be seeing a shrink/grief counselor already. Your body is dying, and you are in the 5 stages. That shit won't get any better until/if you get to acceptance.
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I have a friend that did this. She grows and harvests her own mushrooms for predictability of dosage. She's been off antidepressants for 3-4 years and says it's made a world of difference.
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moonarchia
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Oblio
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I know you are joking but this is totally my MO. When depression starts to hit I take on way more than I can possibly handle. It works for awhile because I have no time to think/wallow in my own feelings. But then one day I will just say I need to take a break because I am so worn out and BAM depression is waiting for me. It's a fucked up balancing act that I cycle through a few times every year.
moonarchia
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I know. Depression doesn't go away until you isolate the source and deal with it. The longer it takes, the more damage it does and the harder it becomes to get to.
Oblio
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I know the source of it, have openly admitted the source for ~20 years. I am much better than I was 10-15 years ago. I put work with a therapist for 5+ years. Haven't seen a therapist in about 9 years so sometimes it rears its ugly head. Some wounds just don't heal.
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So... I went off my meds... turns out I'm losing my god damn mind...
And now I sit here... thinking what is better? to be completely numb on meds and just kind of going along with life...
Or not living at all.
I just feel so lonely on a critical level... like at this point I demand too much from anyone that could ever be reasonably given.
And I'm willing to offer so little.
At the moment I really fucking hate my existence... but I'm also such a coward, I'm just scared.
I'm also heavily drinking... thus this post that I won't remember in the morning...
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Oblio
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Bro did you go cold turkey off the meds? I did that and it was horrible. You have to ween yourself off.
Drinking is not your friend when you are in a bad place. When you wake up tomorrow with a hangover, force yourself to get 20-30 mins of excercise. Get your heart rate up and get a good sweat. Hydrate the rest of the day. Wake up the next day and excercise again. Just force it, Discipline = Freedom.
I have excercised for 20 days straight and I know it really helped pull me out of my last depression flair up.
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moonarchia
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Oblio covered the big ones. Stop drinking and start exercising. Were your sessions any help in figuring out what the root cause of your depression is?
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Aye, nothing too tricky but sure worked up a sweat.
The ease of delivery these days has been a great enemy. Financially too...
Not quite, I guess there is a lot that needs fixing right now and that doesn't really leave much room to do that kind of digging.
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moonarchia
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Make time for it. There are no short cuts. Either see a shrink until you get to the bottom of it or get to meditating until you get to the bottom of it. The longer you wait to get started, the longer the process is going to take, and the more damage it does to your life and well being.
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I’ll add that it’s very common for people to go through a few therapists before they find one that really works for them.
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Interesting, but wouldn't almost everyone taking creatine also be working out at decently high level?
Exercise is known to be of great help, especially so if you are invested in yourself and seeing progress and taking supplements like creatine to further your progress.
Still more to it than that in a couple of the articles linked, its very interesting.
moonarchia
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Correct. Creatine users are also working out. And yes, working out is going to be what is helping more than the creatine. The physical and mental benefits of working out have been researched and proven many times over.